Why is it so hard to believe in yourself?

-
I think the biggest problem for me in managing the transition from the Strict Diet to Maintenance is that I really fared well under the microscope of the trice-weekly monitoring at the clinic. 

You can't cheat because they will catch you. The evidence is in the pee..! 

Here, on the Maintenance, you are alone to your own devices and are not even required to come in if you "can't make it." You still have to keep your eating journal (which is mine 100% accurate - no!) 

I'd rather come in twice a week - Tuesdays AND Thursdays, just to know I'm on track. 

I feel like I'm being fed to the food wolves, without having my clinic conscience there to guide me and steer me through my eating temptation and dilemmas. To me this is the hardest test - can I make it on my own and guide my own eating behaviour? 

It's taking some work, and I think with this first week under my belt (and some added guilt from the sugar rush and screaming halt on my ketosis burning) I'll have to get myself back on track. If not, then I might just go back on the Strict Diet to reach my full 140 loss and then ease back into Maintenance. 

Otherwise, I just fear that I won't make it and will jeopardize what I've achieved through stupid choices and mistakes.

Comments

Sharon Rollins said…
You know you can do it !!!
Put a picture of your "old" self in clear view..(on the fridge, in your back pocket...)as a reminder of how far you've come ! When you are tempted just pull it out! It might help !
August 23, 2009 at 2:51 PM
Helen R. said…
Good idea - plus I bought a scale. I just don't want to become obsessive about it, but at the same time I need to keep control of what goes in. Thanks for the pep talk pal! :-)
August 24, 2009 at 6:52 PM
kimmie said…
Congrats on your weight loss. I am too 10 lbs away from my goal weight and was planning to visit the dr. b office tomorrow and request maintenance, a little tired of the strict diet. I know that each time I eat something off the program my mouth gets tingly and the gratifiation is not there like it is when eating something more satisfying and healthy. Tonight I came home and ate something I shouldnt and tomorrow will be a non burning pee stick why do I do this to myself, jello-light for 3 more days...not cool! Had I just taken the time to pull out the chicken instead! tomorrow is a new day! Cheers with crystal light!
August 25, 2009 at 11:01 PM
Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The vitamins/supplements

-
Image
A little blurb on the supplements you take on the Bernstein diet.  Because the diet itself is only 800-900 calories per day, you need to ensure that you take extra multivitamins, minerals and potassium supplements. The clinic recommends Swiss One 50 timed release caplets with 36 minerals and supplements. It includes extra B vitamins and lutein - a supplement to the B-complex injections you receive.  You can get these in any drug store in the natural brands section. The clinic sells for $16 per bottle. Not bad for 72 caplets. You take one per day, so you've got a good 2+ months worth there.  Take your vitamins first thing with breakfast to kick-start your body throughout the day. Along with the multivitamin, take your potassium supplement.  The clinic usually starts off with a low dose prescription, but will regularly touch base with you on your visits whether you need to increase your dosage. Symptoms include headaches, coldness in your hands/feet, tingling,...
Read more

Post-diet impacts

-
Image
Well, it's been a month of "maintenance", and things are going well. While I didn't last long on the Bernstein-sanctioned program approach - opting instead for my own Portion.And.Calorie.Control method - I am staying the course at 140. I must say that I do need to get back to the meal tracking and CalorieCount.com data inputting, to make sure I stay on track. As I'm reflecting on the diet though, and meeting up with others here in Ottawa who have also done the program, I've noted a few things. Decreased Potassium I've heard from some that they are experiencing some ongoing "cold" sensations. Cold hands and feet. Perhaps due to the decreased potassium intake, one lady theorizes. I can't say that I noticed that until today. My hands are little ice cubes, and I'm dressed quite warmly. No signs of a cold coming on either...strange... Cramping What I have experienced is daily foot and leg cramping, which I attribute to the decreasing of ...
Read more

Week 19 of the diet / Week 1 of Maintenance

-
Image
On Tuesday I went in for my Maintenance consultation. I was so excited to learn about all the good things that await me when I get to my goal weight. I was feeling very desperate to start eating some other foods. I think I was feeling quite deprived due to the summer traveling we were doing. Montreal, with all the fine restaurants; friends visiting with wine and bbqs, and my daughter's upcoming birthday, replete with cake and snacks.  I arrived and weighed in at 49.5 lbs - wow, only 9 more lbs to go! The nurse complimented me and said I was one of the success stories, and if I wanted to, could start the program right away. WOW!!  I was ready - pumped - psyched, and listened eagerly to the program breakdown. I fingered through the two new program "bibles" that would unlock the gastronomic delights that be available to me.  The Maintenance program allows for a smooth transition from the strict diet to gradually re-introducing some new foods and portions. While you st...
Read more